Created
Nov 11
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Well, here I am at home on one of my last mandatory days off. Call it a mandatory furlough day, or whatever you want. It's a day off without pay. But, not without a certain amount of benefit to me!
Today I will work on preparing the empty bedroom upstairs (vacated by DS11 who moved to his dad's this summer) to make it ready for DD21, who is moving home, and is very likely pregnant. (Pregnancy will be confirmed once she arrives by home test AND a doc. appt.)
I hate uncertainty. I really, REALLY like to know what's headed my way in the future when possible. I realize that's not always possible, but having something like this dropped in my lap, not knowing when DD21 is arriving...not knowing if she actually IS pregnant...not knowing where, how, when she will get a job....trying to figure out how on earth to afford all this...
I guess sometimes I let things get to me too much, and I go a little overboard. I just have to take this one day at a time...one minute at a time...because I really have no other choice. But when every e-mail and every phone call brings some new twist to this situation, it makes it a little overwhelming. Just when I think it's all settled and things will go THIS way...I get another phone call and suddenly they've reversed course and are headed in a totally different direction.
But...that's life, I guess! Just when you think you've got a handle on things, that you're juggling all you can, and fairly successfully keeping all the balls in the air, someone throws you something else to juggle - and sometimes it's a bowling ball!