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Mar 08 2010
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mental health, psychology, depression, ptsd, self injury
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The author outlines her thinking process before, during and after the act of self injury (cutting).
The trigger, anxiety, negative talk, justification, rest, the set up, the act, clean up, guilt and shame, reconciliation and action.
Negative Self Talk - I beat myself up about wanting to cut, burn or scratch my skin.
This step here is important because it leads to the other steps. Beating myself up about wanting to cut lowers my self esteem, tanks it. If I didnââ,¬t degrade myself on top of the heavy emotions I already feel from the original trigger I may not be pushed over the edge. Without going over that edge I wonââ,¬t cut. Negative self talk is important if Iââ,¬m actually going to pick up that instrument and accomplish what I want to do. In this negative self talk I remind myself of how horrible I am for wanting to cut. I think about how disappointed others will be if they find out. I go on and on and on until I feel like filth. This step of beating and lowering my self esteem leads to justification.
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